The Hardest Goodbye

I like you a lot.

It feels like it may never stop.

But she likes you still

and she would hate me if she knew how I feel.

I cannot say yes to you

Because I would lose her friendship and you would too.

But I cannot say no to you

When you look at me the way that you do.

So from now on I will hide

And let the tears soak into my heart inside.

I will swallow my cries

Until I can move on without any despise.

Your friendship means the world

But it hurts so much in my chest I could hurl.

I can't make a move or get in the way,

Which is why I must hide. I just cannot stay.

She can't see the things that go on inside me.

So neither will you, because she would not leave us be.

I don't want to hurt either one of you

which is why I'll just hurt myself until I can get through.

No one will see it and my heart will mend

And I will find someone else for my happy end.

This heart inside me is weak and gets bruised, 

But my soul is stronger and knows I will not lose.

Life has a way of moving its course.

And love will come when it is meant to, not when it comes with remorse.