For Abelina

When we lose someone we love

Things are never the same

I know now that you are a beautiful angel above

Watching over those who love your name

There is a reason for every thing

Though it is hard to secure in my thoughts

You are up there with our Heavenly King

You are loved and you shine in my heart like a million watts

I will never fail to remember you

Being gone doesn't mean you are absent from my life

Up to heaven you flew

Yet you are still here to help me get through my trials and strife

Humanity Can Only Be Found on Two Knees

Humanity is gone

You are stuck in a world where people think right is wrong

Jolting your head back and forth

Because you no longer feel safe on this treacherous Earth

When you are even cautious to walk past your own window

That's when you know there's only one place to go

Your knees give you the needed embrace

For the tears and wrinkles which lay on your face

Bow your head and pour your heart

That's all you have left to give as your part

Innocents lay dead

And the cruelty of others will pound in your head

Living in fear seems to now be the end

And you have all seemed to have lost at least one of your friends

Comfort is scarce and hard to find

It's almost impossible to imagine a happy finish line

No one would ever think again to be surprised

When more hearts are shattered and no one ends up fine

Nevermore Surrender

The heart is insufficient

It makes them so impatient

Giving many reasons not to say

Why things don't end up the right way

They succeed to fool it because they know

They can use it to play and grow

Thinking of themselves and nothing else

It's never been a matter of sanity or health

They take it's savings of all it's years

And only stop to look at it's pile of tears

When all it can do is breathe

They have better things to seethe

No understatements will be assured

All that could be found are the things they injured

They vigorously summoned the fear

Now it will be insane to persevere 

They march in to burn it down

But it's hard to find strength in an evening gown

Rip up the fabric and link it to their wrists

Good things will happen when they can't resist

Put the mind to rest and leave the mess for the next

The fearful's been conquered with passed up effects

Alone on My Own

This is me marching into the dark

The only thing I have left is a soft glow of an idea that I strongly believe in

Step by step

Moving blindly forward

Never stopping

Remembering when life was lit for me

I took it for granted

I didn't understand

Now I have to find my own light

Based off of my own hope and desire

Some ideas fail

Some never even grow

I won't let it stop me

Nothing can hold me back

I have my own determination

It can't be stolen

It can't be ruined

It can't be stopped

Laying out in the dark isn't so scary anymore

When I can look up and see the stars spelling out HOPE

Darkness gives me peace

It gives me strength 

It gives me time to think

When my life was lit for me, I could never look up

Fear captured me

Now that the lights have been shut off, I can never look down

My fear left behind its cage

Spontaneity, hope, and determination have taken control 

Sapience

The emotions triggered have me ready to detonate

If everything were right and sane we would have much more to emulate

We are spitting out fire from the ice inside our souls

One thing is for sure, and it is not the cure

It's what makes us want to regurgitate

Stereotypical ingenuity will stay away from the ordeal

Love has a way of keeping me looking towards the ideal

The example of a saved life explodes the gunpowder in my heart

Making me bleed out my fear and hope of my beneficial anneal

My thoughts clash against me

My past tries to haunt me

I feel so unworthy

But the conquer will not be against me

Even with no fence to protect me

The more I am beaten and ignored

The more I grow and become restored

The more undertaking I am forced to endure

The more I earn peace, my place, and reward