Nightmare

This is inspired by some pretty sad dreams I had the other night. The one that inspired most of my writing this time wasn't necessarily horrible...It just brought to surface a lot of emotion. Don't read into it too much, but interpret it however you want of course. Writing this has actually helped me to get over the emotions I have been feeling. I've been having a hard time falling to sleep because of all the nightmares I've been having, so I'm glad I can get this all off of my mind and onto paper. Or I guess the internet. :)
(p.s. I know this isn't written out perfectly. I was just getting it all off my chest). :)

Nightmare

Now with each glistening blink of my eyes

Night-time has been something I've grown to despise 

I didn't want to leave

And I didn't want to break his heart the way he did to me

I couldn't fight this battle without having to die

I found out the truth, and the truth was he lied

I knew my strengths were meant for a different mission

How could I be so hurt yet so calm about his decision?

Where was I finding the sense in my pain?

He wore carelessness in his actions but regret and love on his face

Which was the whole reason I was going insane

His anger was his way of saying "I was wrong"

And "I'm sorry that you had to wait for so long"

I wanted so badly to be able to hold him and say everything would end up being okay

But I couldn't tell him because I couldn't stay

If I gave him my full heart, it would throw our friendship away

The embrace of hope that he gave me that day was only being seen in one heart's sight

Because on the other side was a lost mind and some tears fighting to stay out of the moonlight

This nightmare has not found my dream-catchers door

I don't have the strength to sleep anymore

I didn't want to lose 

But no matter what I decided to choose

The only way for me to win 

Was to give the win to him.