Let It Out

There will come a time in everyone's lives

Where they will have to realize

That their own heart is the only thing they can always rely on

Friends will always have their own say

And families always seem to be so far away

So whenever you feel like you can't see anything but gray

Your tears will never disappoint you

They are always there to help you think

And keep feelings around when everything else starts to sink

Never lose hope and things will pay off

When you are sick with defeat

And feel like those around you only know how to mistreat

Don't let them take your susceptibility

Let your emotions shine through

Because no matter what, they will always be there for you

Don't let the ocean of carelessness seize what is yours

Fight the current that struggles so much to bring you along

Tears do not mean you are defeated or wrong

The most honest thing you could ever do is cry

So cure the fever of loneliness inside

Keep the drops flowing from your eyes until you're dry

Move forward and know there is always a cause

It's amazing what salty water can do with your flaws

Endurance

The things that soothe the soul

Are not always the things that will put you in control

They can take you to a far away place

But you will eventually have to return and face your mistakes

Sitting around in an empty lonely home

Has the tendency of wiping that smile off your face

When you want to be happy, make it so

Don't let your life stay on the plateau

The ups and downs of a static heartbeat

Are exactly what you need to enjoy your life's show

When no one seems to be saying what you want to hear

And those that you love can't make anything sincere

Just make sure you know that they are human too

And maybe they're the ones who need you to make them endear

Difficulties are followed with sparks of hope

Even though they feel heavy and won't let you float

The weights that are often hooked into your heart

Can be taken away after that long rising slope

The persistence you show will pay off after all

Just always remember to hold and not fall

Prescriptions handed to you can't cure the disease

They won't cure anything when they make you feel so small

I'M BACK

Ok...So, I realized how much I hated blogging. It seemed boring and I definitely didn't want to take a picture of myself every day. I found something that I love to do though that I finally feel ready to share. So...here goes...
I love writing poetry/lyrics. Even though I may not be very good, and a lot of these probably need some work, I still want to put them down on this blog so I can store them someplace. I'm running out of room in my Humanities notebook. Haha.
Anyways, the thoughts that I write are mostly the ones I'm trying to get off my mind. It soothes my soul when I have no other place to go. This is just how I express my feelings' meanings according to my mind, but feel free to interpret them however you'd like.
This is the first one that I decided that I wanted to share. Enjoy!

Worth isn't Measured Until the End

It's the one thing she sees

But just cannot seem to please

The pieces of her heart can't seem to find her eyes

So she keeps them inside and sits in her defaulted disguise

Making her happy is easy to do

But it's even enjoyable to be lost in a zoo

It's easy to know what is deep in her soul

When you look in her eyes and see a sign of a goal

She can't seem to hide no matter how hard she tries

Why can't it tell her what it feels inside

It conditions its mind to be the hardest to find

It destroys the easy path to a relationship divine

It is lucky to  have found something so profound

And this girl easily stands above her ground

The beautiful thing she has found to persist

Will undoubtedly be the last on her list

Remedies and tragedies will all find their worth

When she's drowning in victory and happiness on Earth

The one thing she loves above all the rest

Will never attest what it knows is the best

Endearing and sweet it will finally meet 

And an eventual change of the heart it will treat

Then the disguise of the eyes on both sides of this lie

Will crumble together to make the two fly.

There's hope!

I have been a horrible blogger. (As you all probably already know). So, I have decided to turn this into a picture blog. I stole some ideas from roommates, aunts, and friends and have decided to take a picture once a week or once a day (I can't decide) for an entire year. The catch is that you're all going to have to wait to see my face on here until my birthday on September 1st. :) See you in a couple months.

College vs. High School

People always told me that the people you meet in College will mean so much more to you than anyone you've ever met in high school. I didn't know how true that was until this last semester ended. I can definitely say I have a new best friend, who I know I will keep in touch with for probably the rest of my life. My relationships with boys also mean so much more to me than they did in high school. These times are hard, but the best times I have had in my life so far. I love being independent in the world, and meeting and getting to know new people.

I came home for a week, and the friends I have here in Canon City, Colorado are so lame! I love visiting my family and I LOVE Colorado, but I think I'm ready for the new semester up in Rexburg. I start classes next Tuesday the 17th. I miss the friends I have in Rexburg, and now the ones that aren't in Rexburg anymore. (Especially Camie Schulthies). Camie wrote me a letter before I left for Colorado. I'll have to put a copy of it on here. It made me cry. I'll also have to put up some pictures of my visit right now to CO. I've been having a good time. :)

Lost but Never Forgotten

‎"The Master Gardener from Heaven above, planted a seed in the garden of love. And from it there grew a rosebud small, that never had the time to open at all. For God in His perfect and all-wise way, chose this rosebud for His Heavenly Bouquet. And great was the joy of this tiny rose, to be the one our Father chose, to leave earth's garden for one on high, where roses bloom always and never die." 

As of yesterday 3 of my friends have passed away and left this life. The first, Abelina. She died more than a year and a half ago in July. This quote was on her funeral program. She was one of my best friends and was my best friend in the LDS Church. The second, Sammi. She was my friend ever since 4th grade. She died a year ago in February. And now the third, Daniel. He passed away yesterday. I wish I knew him better, but he was such a friendly, happy, talented guy. His smile lit up everyone's day. He will be greatly missed. This quote gives me so much comfort in life and I hope that it can comfort any one who has lost a loved one before they were even old enough to really start their life. (Like these 3 friends of mine). 

Pros & Cons

There has been so much change this semester. It has made me realize some things and also want to change some things about me. So here's a little list of the top pros and cons of this semester for me so far.

PROS: 

• Roommates (Seriously, you guys mean so much to me)
• Skype and my cell phone (Except my family needs to use them more often ;) )
• Free time (which equals having a social life)
• Devotional on Tuesdays (Lately all the talks seem to be directly towards me)
• My calling at church (Gospel Doctrine teacher--who knew that would make the pro list)
• New friends (aka my FHE family--I love them :) )
• Boys (We all knew that was coming :P )

CONS:

• No job (Still haven't found anything)
• Rude people (You mess with my friends, then you're messing with me)
• Wind (Seriously! Why does Idaho have to be so dang windy?!?!)
• Having no money (Hence, the job search...)
• Colorado withdrawals (I need me some MOUNTAINS!! and family of course.)

So obviously there are more pros than cons, which is a good thing, but this semester has been such a crucial, important, learning time in my life. I'm learning so much about myself. 

 This is my FHE family. They are all so great.

 This is me and my roommate Anna. I love her so much. I'm so glad to be her last roommate before she gets married. :)

These crazy people are all my roommates, and myself of course. This was our Valentine feast that I made. I love these girls!

Signed, Katrina Marie----> and till next time, stay golden :)